May these words serve the Highest Good. Amen!
Upon witnessing my human animal going through its day, I realized that one of its primary faults is not being properly reflected upon / addressed in the Spiritual Journal. So…without too much disclosure…perhaps there is still a bit of fear about some of the shortcomings…I’m continue to evolve the journaling and include some of the great virtues of the yoga sutras, commonly referred to as Yama & Niyama, or Observances and Abstinences.
Nonviolence: 8/10. Said some words that were not totally skillful. Basically intentionally ‘dissed’ someone for a few laughs from the group. Anyway, I have forgiven myself 😉
Truthfulness: 8/10. If I said 9 or 10…well then I’d be putting myself in a trap!
Non-stealing: This is something I could work on it. It is subtle, but I think I need more honesty and awareness around this area…and perhaps have some consequences in place if I feel that I violated this virtue.
Moderation: Getting better with this regarding food consumption…waiting until noon to eat is becoming more normal and relaxed, although I still tend to have a big lunch!
Non-greed: This seems to be partnered with non-stealing and moderation too…so I’d say it is okay but could be better. Could also be more generous with charity, both monetary giving and giving by means of volunteer service.
Purity: Well…this a pretty vague word. If it refers to the intention I have throughout the day, I’d say I am generally service-oriented and focused on loving and giving, although when it comes to food sometimes I eat for the senses rather than to optimize the service of the body and mind.
Contentment: Pretty much so! Especially with the idea that if everything goes terribly I’ll just living a wandering sadhu or swami lifestyle…it is all okay. Nothing to fear – nothing to see. The Lord is my shepherd – I have all I need!
Accepting pain without causing pain: Yes…haven’t been experiencing much pain recently – may have caused a bit of pain…God help me!
Spiritual Study: Ah, love reading the Bible 🙂 Haven’t been up on the Bhagavad Gita the last few days…but did just complete a weekend workshop on nonviolent communication which seemed like a spiritual event.
Surrender to God: Pretty good with this…who knows! God knows 🙂
Ok then…reconnecting with the areas for growth and the direction to grow in…
Mindfulness and Gratitude while eating, being with people: More! More! More! 🙂
Depth of Meditation: Feeling pretty good.
Wake up: past two mornings have been early starting with meditation and a yoga class, thanks to the ashram and the weekend workshop.
Focusing on the Spiritual, transcending the worldly: Kind of…
Ok another fun way – let’s look at the 7 deadly sins!
Anger: Pretty good with this. Although I do get annoyed.
Lust: Working on this. Working on seeing the Beauty in all people of all shapes and sizes, not just the one’s generally considered ‘good-looking.’ Working on looking beyond appearance, to the essence, the Divine Essence! Remembering I have all I need….the Lord is my shepherd.
Sloth: Pretty good. Sometimes sleeping in late, but pretty active and serving during the day.
Envy: Did have some envy of wealth the other day, and even envy of some Mormons who were on their 2 year pilgrimage and talked with me for a bit. Then I remembered to just love them and celebrate life with them and that healed the envy.
Gluttony: Ahh…tricky tongue! The body is staying relatively fit and light so I guess it is decently under control…and with the discipline of intermittent fasting at least there is some sense of order there…but during the eating window things still seem to get a bit out of a hand…let’s see how things go for the rest of the day.
I guess I need to get clear on my ideal during this area and the step-by-step process to getting there. I think it would be great to eat only 1 meal a day and feel totally satisfied with that…and the journey to getting there would be going from 3 to 2 meals a day…right now I am able to wait until 12 to eat and then almost have 3 mini-meals from 12-2 and then sometimes snacks around 4 and dinner at 630…so in a sense it a lot of eating sessions. Maybe I’ll just commit to 3 meals in the 12-8 window – because right now I sometimes eat at 5 or 6 different times in that window – so not that efficient! Being disciplined with only eating at 3 separate occasions in that 12-8 window would be a good start…let’s do it!
Greed: Could be more generous with finances…kind of unsure with this whole bitcoin rollercoaster ride. I’m still in it for the long-term hold, although sometimes it does look like it is all going to 0 and I think about taking out what I put in. We shall see! Maybe I’ll practice not looking at it / checking it on a daily basis…that might help to be less greedy – and perhaps to keep closer track of finances so that I am definitely giving 10% of my income to charity.
Also, sometimes I have doubts about wanting a full-time job just for the extra income vs. wanting it because the service is fulfilling and I’d be good at it. Maybe it is a bit of both, but I hope it is more of the latter! To be on vacation all the time, doing work that is enjoyable..that’s the good stuff!
Pride: This comes up when physically exercising…vanity…trying not to look in the mirror too much.
Ok…then the great spiritual points:
Awareness of the Beauty, Perfection, Holiness / Sacredness of All that Exists:
Well…now that I think about it…it is there a little bit. Could always be greater, though! Maybe a walk in Nature would help.
Aha! I do remember seeing raindrops on a tree this morning and sensing some beauty and awe in that.
Selfless Service and Giving: More!
I was about to be hard on myself for the poor quality of these journals, but they are mostly just for my own use and probably not of much value to readers..so perhaps I will get back to writing on here and start a different blog for these spiritual diaries…that might be the respectful thing to do!
Thank you in Abundance!
Glory to God in the Highest!